I'm Lonely - Wednesday, November 6, 2024

Well, hello. This is my first post. First, I'll do a short introduction: My name is Guadalupe. Second: Why am I here? To which I say, Did the title not give it away? I've always been a loner, even when I was very little. It was okay when I was five, sure, but I'm seventeen now, in college, becoming an adult. Being surrounded by groups of friends, laughing and talking with each other, seems in stark contrast to my alone self. I feel like an outcast, crippled by the gaping black hole of isolation.

So here I am. I considered going back to Tumblr where I met my first real friends, but I want nothing to do with social media, and Tumblr has some painful memories. I know nobody will ever read this; I hope nobody who knows me will ever read this. However, writing is a comfort. Even pretending to confide in someone, even if that someone is simply the void of the internet, is a nepenthe. For a little bit… I almost feel connected.

That's why I'm here. I'm isolated. I miss my online community. Current social media (Insta, Snap, etc.) dissuades true honesty. So here I am — vulnerable, desperately truthful, reaching out into the internet galaxy to feel another human's pulse